What a way to start my break…

I thought the impending snow storm would be my biggest worry, but I guess there were other plans.

O well, you just have to go with the flow.

I am just going to try my best and enjoy the winter snow fall, and maybe get lucky and find a holiday job! Let’s hope for the best

OOO on a good note, looks like the University finally came to their senses and I will be able to get credit for last semester! YAY!

Up next, I get back to my Daily Holiday Video trend with some words from Linus…

The Holidays

The holiday season is finally here!! It has been a rough couple of months, but hopefully it will all be figured out soon. But to keep my spirits up, I am focusing on the upcoming celebrations!

Soon enough I will be back home in NH, where I feel like I fit in and can relax and enjoy the people around me, breathe the clean air, going skating on the pond, sledding down the hills and drinking cocoa while the snow falls. I can’t wait!

My Mom is coming back to NH for the holidays this year, so I’m not sure hwo that will work out, ro what she plans on doing for Christmas. I’m just not sure how I feel about it either. On one hand I am happy that she will be back, but mostly I am kind of upset with her. I know I should want her there for the holidays, but I am already dreading the awkwardness that is bound to happen. I don’t want to have to choose who to spend time with, and I feel like she is going to make me do that one way or the other with or without knowing it. That’s what was nice about her being out here and my Dad being back home. Thanksgiving was with her, and Christmas was with him and I didn’t have to think about it. I don’t want the holidays to be complicated, I want it to be simple and sweet. I don’t want to worry about who I need to please or who I am going to hurt, I just want to enjoy the break.

Oh well, here is to hoping it all works out better than I expect. I am going to try my best to make it a great Christmas and to spend time with the people who matter most to me. And I will of course be playing in the snow every chance I get!

Happy Holidays Everyone!

going to a town

been listening to rufus a lot lately getting myself pumped for his show in sept.  i cant wait.  it will be a nice relief once classes start up again.

i really don’t know what i am going to do with my life.  i feel like i am both getting pushed closer and closer to the “normal” life but still seeing myself moving further and further from it as the years go on and i am still so socially awkward.  yay self confidence and LA really helping me out in getting over the issues.  i know deep down that that is the reason i really don’t like LA, because i constantly feel like i have to compete with the anorexic, self tanning, boozing it up, dumb ass girls that rule the market here.  and i don’t like changing myself just to survive.  i love being home where i feel like i am around people who don’t constantly care whether you are wearing seven jeans, or ones from target as long as they look good, they are good enough for your friends and everyone else looking at you.  i think personality can take you a lot farther there.  here it always seems to come second, if not dead last.

but i do seem to have found a good core at last and that is what i really needed.  people to relate to that i dont have to censor myself around.  i hate that.  moving to this new apt seems to be helping me in finding the good things about this city…but i still need some more convincing that people actually like living here and aren’t holding on to the idea of living here and what it means when they tell people they reside in LA and can see the Hollywood sign from their apt window.  those arent the important things and i know that now.  i need my girls back home, my cats, my sox and people who seem like the generally want to know YOU underneath it all.  plus i need a little more rock and roll in my life, not this shitty hip hop and club music that plagues the stations out here.  ugh.  but i do get to see some sweet art shows.

and i think i have a crush.  we’ll see how it plays out.  but i love his eyes, they just seem so kind.  i haven’t seen kind eyes in a while and it is quite refreshing. i think i seem to young for him though, which is a new one for me.  i always feel too old for my crowd.  i just want him to ask me to lunch once, or say “bye” to me at the end of the day. i should probably take the initiative though and say good night sometime.  hopefully before my last day.  i dont want to stay like this forever, i really don’t.

It’s Christmas!

so instead of snow we got some frost and instead of a nicely lit pretty tree, we got our knocked over y Ginger most likely as she was spazzing out in the middle of the night and probably tried to climb it.  silly cat!  but its all good.  presents are opened, tree is up again, and christmas is relaxing for now.  bout to leave for the grandparents house in a bit so that will add some spice to the holiday with my little cousins running around and such…

hope everyones holiday season has been enjoyable so far and don’t forget we still have new years if all you want is to forget christmas than i am sure i can help arrange that for you

man i really want to make this layout christmas-y but i am cheap and don’t want to pay! haha.  o well.

Oh and do’nt forget! a new year means a new red sox team! hopefully without the ALREADY broken drew…but i guess you cant ask for too much, like a reliable outfielder now can you!?

anyways merry christmas, happy end of hannukah, happy kwanzaa?? and have a great rest of break and holiday season. maybe we will get some snow even!