just to save me

so, how much difference could it possibly make?
how much effort could it possibly take to save me
to save me, to save me, just to save me?
save me from sailing over the edge

m. ward – ‘to save me’

Almost done with the semester. It has really flown by. It should be my last semester but it looks like that isn’t going to happen after all. Lately I just feel like everything is spinning out of control. When that happens I would much rather hide inside and hope that it all just stops spinning on its own instead of going out and trying to make it stop on my own. I feel so helpless sometimes, eventhough I have control over everything. I feel like there is so much for me to do I just can’t complete it all so where do I start? What do I do first? How do I even begin? So it all just piles and piles and gets worse and worse. And I know what I need to do I just can’t bring myself to do it. Why is that? Why can’t I just DO IT! One day I will figure things out and I will wonder what took me so long. But for now I am going to go out and try to make the spinning and craziness stop. Here I go…