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i carried a watermelon

this summer of death as it has come to be known really needs to end soon. it’s getting to the point where i’m afraid to look at the news to see what horrible thing has happened or what icon from my childhood has died.

sadly today, one of my favorites Patrick Swayze has passed. dirty dancing will always be one of my favorite movies. i love many of his other movies like ghost and roadhouse but dirty dancing holds a special place. even now, if it is on tv i can’t change the channel on it even though i own the movie! he fought long and hard to battle his cancer proving just how strong of a person he truly was. rip Patrick you will be truly missed.

here are some of my favorite scenes from dd:

finale:

the log:

mickey & silvia:

i carried a watermelon:

life moves pretty fast. if you don’t stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it.

John Hughes died yesterday. He was only 59, taking a morning walk in NYC while on a trip to visit family. So sad. I think I really started to watch his movies and love them and cherish them in college. They are mostly about the teenage years and how high school really is for kids. Even though I wasn’t going through that period they all really hit home. He captured it so well. The insecurities, the crushes, the hardships, the teasing, the partying, the humor…He just got it. To make movies that had such an impact on so many people and movies that were able to really capture what hadn’t been before or even really after is the mark of a genius and a great man. So great he did this.

Whenever I am down I go back to this scene in Pretty in Pink:

Someday that song will come on while I am browsing in a record store and I will break out that dance in remembrance of him, and to just embrace life.

This post is going to quickly turn into a bunch of clips and favorite quotes, and how could it not, I think that is the only real way to explain the affect he had on me and many others, to have you watch and listen to his movies. So, go watch his movies and relieve the moments you remember, the moments that helped define who you are. I am so sad he has left us way too early but I am so happy and thankful that he has left behind such wonderful presents that will live on and continue to speak to generations of people to come.

instant

i want you back

There has been too much death lately. Why do bad things always seem to come in 3’s? When Ed and Farrah left us it was almost expect, we had had time to process a world without them on our screens. Michael though, he came as a surprise. For me he was the only one of the three who was a real icon in my eyes. Someone i had grown up with and admired. Seen at the height of his game. I knew of Farrah and the Angels. I recognized McMahons voice from old shows, but Michael was even a holiday ritual in my household. Every Halloween my family would flip on the TV and watch the full length “Thriller” mini-movie, just like we always watched “It’s a Wonderful Life” every Christmas. I had to cover my eyes whenever the one guy cam on screen and spit up blood and it still creeps me out today.

He may have led a troubled life and he may have done unspeakable things to other children, but today I will mourn the loss a musical genius and someone who brought such joy to me in my childhood and continues to lift my spirits when I am down and remind me to keep knocking down barriers to make this world a better place for all.

I hope you have finally found peace in your life Michael. I wish only the best for your family and I hope you and Farrah and Ed are having a great party tonight and dancing to P.Y.T. wherever you are now.

Here is a video of one of my favorite MJ songs.

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and some Jackson 5 with a guest appearance by Mr. Cosby:

after hours

this night is winding down but
time means nothing,
as always at this hour
time means nothing,
one final final round cos
time means nothing,
say that you’ll stay
say that you’ll stay
say that you’ll stay.

we’re all right where we’re supposed to be,
we’re all right where we’re supposed to be,
we’re all right where we’re supposed to be,
(time means nothing)
we’re all right where we’re supposed to be,
(time means nothing)

we are scientists – after hours

sun’s coming up. i haven’t been able to go to sleep before 3 lately. it is very unlike me. usually i am passed out by 11. been watching a lot of movies late at night in my bed trying to fall asleep to the sounds. it works sometimes but usually it is just a way to pass the time. i think i need to get out of my head. i don’t know where i would go though. it helps to listen to music. i’m not the best at expressing myself and i think music is my way of processing things and feeling things and addressing things like it is for so many people. i envy musicians and writers. people who can put it out there for everyone, i envy that. i miss him. i don’t think he really misses me that much, it’s not like he has tried to get in touch with me. and why should he, nothing really ever happened, and when somethign could have i think i ruined any chance of it happening again. maybe it’s just not the right time, maybe it never will be. i’d like to find out either way. i feel lost though. not just with that situation but with everything. i guess that is what every recent graduate feels like, but i almost feel like i don’t belong. like i never will. where do i go? what do i do when i get there? it doesn’t have ot be for life. i don’t need to find a place to settle on. i just need a place for now, for this stage. i just don’t have the energy. i push it down and i let it simmer and i get overwhelmed and push it all down more. am i okay with being cat lady? i don’t know. i am comfortable with being cat lady, but i’m not sure i am okay with it. the rain storm was comforting tonight. i like hearing rain fall on windows when. watching it fall and the wind blow and the skies light up. tucked under covers and drinking hot tea. i like that. i like being enveloped. cuddled. protected. maybe once i get into a new groove things will settle down and the dust will clear and i’ll know where to go next. i like my premonissions, they comfort me. make me feel like i have made the right choices. they may actually be warnings that i am doing things horribly wrong, but i’ll stick with the thought that it’s the universes way of telling me to just keep chugging along, it will all work itself out eventually. it’s just been a lot lately. school. work. no work. money. cats. car. graduating. not graduating. moving. reunion. new faces. old faces. not enough of the same faces. i feel so unprepared, yet i have done so much to get here. i think i gave up half way through though. i feel like i gave up a long time ago. that scares me. can i ever get it back? do i want it back? i think i am ready for the next stage and to see what it brings me and what i can maybe bring myself. for now i will miss the green of nh. i need someplace where i can see the seasons change and life moving on and time going by. i can’t get that from the ocean. it just seems to endless. i don’t want endless, i want definite. things die, but then they get reborn. they change and grow. i don’t want to be stuck in a never ending sea. even if it is the perfect sea, it can’t stay perfect forever and i want something, somewhere, someone that will grow and change with me and be my new perfect. i don’t want to be stuck anymore. i don’t want to be lost. i don’t want to be forgotten. back to some music…

just to save me

so, how much difference could it possibly make?
how much effort could it possibly take to save me
to save me, to save me, just to save me?
save me from sailing over the edge

m. ward – ‘to save me’

Almost done with the semester. It has really flown by. It should be my last semester but it looks like that isn’t going to happen after all. Lately I just feel like everything is spinning out of control. When that happens I would much rather hide inside and hope that it all just stops spinning on its own instead of going out and trying to make it stop on my own. I feel so helpless sometimes, eventhough I have control over everything. I feel like there is so much for me to do I just can’t complete it all so where do I start? What do I do first? How do I even begin? So it all just piles and piles and gets worse and worse. And I know what I need to do I just can’t bring myself to do it. Why is that? Why can’t I just DO IT! One day I will figure things out and I will wonder what took me so long. But for now I am going to go out and try to make the spinning and craziness stop. Here I go…

Stressed Out!

It is midterm time in school right now and spring break can’t come fast enough!  Tonight I have to finish a take home exam, do a make up exam since I guess we all did so poorly, put together my presentation for a pin up review tomorrow, do stuff for taxes, budget plan, figure out graduation and enrollment stuff, I should do some laundry but it won’t happen and who knows what else because I am sure I am forgetting something.

I guess sometimes it jsut feels like it all comes down on you at once.  When it rains it pours I guess…

I really need to stop being such a horrible procrastinator, it doesn’t help me at all.  I think the worst thing is that I tend to do better under pressure, so I let it build up to the point where I need to get it done and stress myself out even more.

Speaking of, I should stop writing this post and get to work!

Later taters…

Wordle

I love things like this! They are fun way to procrastinate getting stuff done

Here is a sample of a word cloud it made for this blog:

Enjoy!

Kingsford Goes to the Beach

How cute is he? If I didn’t already have 2 cats, and if I wasn’t planning on moving somewhere unknown 4 months from now, I would run out and get myself a Kingsford ASAP. I would also probably have to stop eating bacon. My one true love in meat form. That could be hard. But Kingsford is just too awesome, so I guess I could switch to turkey bacon

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